Now I'm sixty. And it seems to be the best time in my life. It has never been this great. Not even in my childhood. There was a veil of sadness over my life that isn't there any more and that I got rid of not until I was in a mature age. It did not even concern me! I just shared the trauma of my family.
My parents in law gave me a value certificate for a clothing shop for larger sizes. Black jeans, raspberry top, sky blue cardigan. While trying things on, I noticed that I lost weight. One size per year. Just through renouncing on sugar and taking dry fruits instead. -- I started a new embroidery: "The path to the truth", as J named it.